People & Pain

Maybe I'm amazed at the way people no matter where they are, people are filled with different types of pain.  One walks through life daily, looks at others curiously and wonders, what is their life like?  Is it better than mine?  Do they have more money than I do?  Do they enjoy experiences more than I do?  Is the proverbial grass greener and what it all comes down to sometimes is -  the people on the other side, living on the greener grass are hurting or in pain over some madness just like all the rest of us are.  They may be enduring hidden heartaches during their days and nights and never a suspect are we, on the outside looking, as best we can - in.

Being obsessed with individuals and their happiness will probably be one of my life markers as I would call it.  You know, the little things that stick with you personally, all through your life.  From the time you first began to reason and rationalize what is important to you and maybe no one else but you.  This is one of the markers for me and my life.  The happiness, contentment and the fulfillment of an individual's life is of ultra concern to me. 

The thought of a person living a life and dying and not ever, ever getting the most of it does not simply frighten or frustrate me, it tears at my being.  So, driven with a purpose to discover the core of what makes some individuals mean, hateful, harmful, vengeful, selfish, rebellious, and just plain nasty, I comb the globe on a mission to understand and then maybe attempt in some small way to make things better.

What is better?   And by what standards?  And who am I to think I can impose my "better" on anyone?  And who cares, because there are some who are very content with their anger and gratifiying pain. It drives them on and on and gets them through their days and nights.  Yet and still,

What is the pain?  And why does it handle so much of everything that happens?  Why do we hurt each other as much as we do?  Who is in charge of monitoring how muchpain each person is doled out in their respective lives?  For some it is tons and tons baring down like lepersy.  Examples of children, abused and misused from the time they are born until they are adults? and can impose the same on others? 

Or the women who select the most violent and vicious men in hopes of gaining excitement, which seems to be a need at their core, although hidden from plain view.  And when the excitement wains, they are left with someone willing to beat them and slander them and tramp on them in the name of frustration and fained love.  How many really do end up in healthy relationships?  How many households here in this town and in others just like it, really have families that are healthy, like they are on television?  If only to be, a fly on the wall, or the family dog, who may observe the structure and goings on in the well to do homes of those who look so "pain free" and so much better off than we. . .

More on this topic to come