The Test of "Mind over Matter" and who may Master

I've always been an advocate of and tried to express to others, that you can allow yourself to feel whatever about any given thing and conquer bad feelings by resisting them or substituting them with good feelings.

For example, just say someone is driving in front of you and acting foolish and you feel a bit of road rage or their behavior makes you really mad, you could logically, substitute the feeling of anger by saying to your "self", this is not really a big deal, they my be crazy and driving erratically, however you do not have to get mad. In this way, you may conquer and/or negate whatever may have occurred due to your original negative feelings.

I also said to many young people when they had a hard time with what they felt or thought that the only thing that could or should really really take hold of "you", the only thing would be if someone close to you died, then most naturally, your feelings would be unavoidable and uncontrollable but otherwise, just about everything else you can work through with "thought therapy" HA!! What a joke that is and was.

I can't control my thoughts at all at this moment. Not at all. They are strong, forceful, determined and filled with dread of what will be tomorrow.

The unknown is a bitch to actually apply in life, how do others do it? There is something quite unsettling about looking at others, walking, talking everywhere you go, everywhere and you know that they are sure of tomorrow or at least Monday morning. It is a surreal thing to watch other people moving about and know that they have the insurance of stability of the next day and the next.

Granted one can't be sure if what is seen is actually the case, but then again there is that mind over matter thing hanging about, dictating what you think and feel.

So for now I am spent. There is a break, a reprieve I guess in my head because I try and keep it occupied from dawn to dusk with anything and everything I can, just to not have to think about the inevitable uncertainty I'll know as soon as I turn around.